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In My Lungs (demo)
03:32
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In My Lungs
I've shed a lot of water over you -
I never wanted to watch you die
i had love and farewell in my lungs,
but then the light left your eyes
How does one prepare for an out of body experience?
How does one prepare for this?
I replay that last week with you over and over in my head
I watched you survive when others would surely die
I thought of the days when everything was vibrant
and yet, I do not have a vivid memory of you healthy
You never complained
And I truly think you were in control the entire time—
You were never afraid of death, it was inevitable
cuz life is temporary
now I only dream of you, you haunt me in my sleep
but you're not dreaming anymore, I know;
empty eyes can't see me—I know
I've never been afraid to cry, and I'm crying more than I'd like to admit
Better days will come but I don't feel any closer to you here
How does one prepare for this?
How does one prepare for this?
I was wrong when I said I'd be over this by morning -
I was wrong
there's not enough of me to go around these days -
I was wrong. I was wrong.
I can be vulnerable, I can be a lot of things—
I feel your pain today
I still feel you inside of our godawful house
but I don't feel any closer to you;
And I guess if there's one thing I regret,
it’s how selfish I had been all those years
Only thought of myself when I had years to prepare for a loss like this
No one envies this, no one envies me
No one envies this, no one envies me
I must forgive myself and be proud I'm still here,
Carrying on your memory — carrying on your memory
You weren't perfect but you were there for me
You weren't perfect but you were there for me
How does one prepare for an out of body experience?
How does one prepare for this?
How does one prepare for an out of body experience?
How does one prepare for this?
your bones were done for, we left you alone
you finally let go, you finally let go
I don't feel any closer to you here
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Out of Fear (demo)
03:15
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Out of fear
showed up to a wedding dressed for a funeral,
listening to bring me the horizon —
trying to decide whether the new songs were as good as the old songs
trying to understand why anyone makes such drastic changes in their lives
but with age comes maturity —
with growth comes compromise
with access comes responsibility
with education comes a voice
what we do with this voice is important
how we develop and evolve our voice
is pivotal to our influence on others
It’s all interconnected and essential to success
the future is not guaranteed
the future is not promised
the future is in crisis
the future is unknown
today is what concerns me
And that’s what fucks me up the most
Today is melting at a rapid rate
within a fire we cannot contain
we do not have the resources - we do not have the time
And it feels like we’ve lost our chance to save ourselves
we keep breaking down out of fear for our future
Out of fear of missing out
Out of fear
Out of fear
Out of fear comes insecurity
Nothing new is learned out of fear
Out of fear comes more fear
Nothing new is learned out of fear
you ever see a tow Truck towing another tow truck?
well, it’s sorta like that
when i break down, i seek another broken person to drag me around
someone who understands where i’m coming from, and knows where i’ve been
but i often fear this reliance comes off as a burden
i’ve never wanted to be a burden
even though i know how much patience it takes to simply be around me
those who i’ve loved and those who i’ve hated
All tell me I’m not a burden but I’ve recently struggled to trust that that’s true
i faithfully insist that i do not exist - the future is unknown
And I think I like it that way
I’m becoming more comfortable with what I cannot control
So I’m giving up my control and learning to let go
I’m learning that someday none of this will matter
And that someday I’ll be gone - someday I’ll be gone
And I think I like it that way
With growth comes the future we are not promised
With growth comes an attempt to change the course of that which we are not guaranteed
That was two ways of saying the same thing -
but at least its an option of perspective
And my hope is that we’re allowed to hold multiple perspectives in the future
Because as it stands today, I’m not sure we will be able to even think without fear
Nothing new is learned out of fear
Nothing new is learned out of fear
Nothing new is learned out of fear
Nothing new is learned out of fear
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